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In Memory of Tommy Fox (1981-2002) - Apr 2002 |
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Web Condolences Archive: April 2002 Emily sis xx at 19:20:54 Tuesday April 30 2002 Hi tom well what can i say!? 2 months has gone by and believe me i still cant figure out why you have been taken away from me not only me but everyone. Ive been thinking about you so much tom and i came to see you the other day and im sorry i cried so hard but i couldnt even look at where you are resting because i just dont believe you are actually there. I miss you so much its unreal!! Well i had my first g.c.s.e today and i know you would have been proud of me because i tried my best for you!!! Dont know how well i done but im sure i did ok! You was on my mind all the time which i think gave me all the good luck i could ever need. All i have now is the memories of you, and the image of your face!! Tom i just wish you would come back home because i still dont think you have really gone i know one day i will have to accept it but i dont think i ever will because im just so alone now, i miss your voice i miss everything about you!! Anyway i best be going now because im crying again i know its not what you want to see...tears...but i honestly cannot smile at the moment i will smile for you on friday night and i hope you watch me all the way!! Love you Xx Rod at 19:47:37 Monday April 29 2002 Dear Tom, How are you buddy? Sorry for not being in contact in a while. I've been thinking of you a lot lately. Really been missing those calls you used to do to my Uni. You always had me in tears on the other end of the line, and if ever somebody else picked up the phone before me, you'd have them in tears too. In fact, all my friends that I used to take down to London with me, who met you all thought you were amazing. That goes without saying though. I'm not going to be able to make it to your Second Club Night, which I'm pretty gutted about. But I know that you'll be looking down on everyone, making sure they're having a banging time!!! Coz if they aren't I know you'll make sure they do. That's one of the things I remember about you best, you weren't just satisfied with people having a good time, you wanted them to have the best time. And you always made sure we did mate. Take it ez laddie, lots of love, and god bless, Rod jem at 18:26:37 Sunday April 28 2002 sorry i was meant to put every mintue of every day! love u tom. love jem xxxxxxxxxxxxxx jem at 18:18:9 Sunday April 28 2002 Hello tommy, i have been thinking of you so much, every mintue if every day! i still cant believe that this has happened! i miss you so much! i just want to see your cheeky smile again! i gotta go, miss you so much love you lots jem xxxx lil sis at 12:47:55 Sunday April 28 2002 Love you xx Danni, G at 17:36:45 Friday April 26 2002 Hi Tom, Just writing to let you know i'm always thinking of you, and im finding it hard to understand even now why you? i visit your web site everyday, just to make me feel as if i'm talking to you or near u, if you know what i mean? I'm gona visit u at the weekend, speak soon, All my love D. All my love to the family..x emily lil sis at 19:1:41 Thursday April 25 2002 Hi tom, Hope you are ok. I am missing you alot still and your always on my mind no matter what. The wether has been lovely all because of you! I still dont understand why you have gone and are no longer here. It just dont seem right. I love you so much and all i can remember is your face :o( i love you. x Emily(his bird!!) at 17:55:54 Thursday April 25 2002 Hello sexy!!..This is just a quick one 2 say hello!!...And 2 tell u again how much I am missin u!!..Cause I am babe!!...Its nearly 2 months now!!..There r stil so so many questions I know I will never get any answers 2!!!..But anyway Im not goin 2 get all sad and stuff angel face!!...I just wanted 2 remind u how much I love u!!!...And always will...My life will never be the same wiv out mmy beautiful angel next 2 me!!...But I will keep smilin and seein u smile wiv me and keep goin strong 4 ya!!..I know I will see u one day baby!!...And that will keep me goin!!..Miss your safe hugs!!..And wish I couldu a biiiig one(hug that is)he he!!!!...Hope u r ok up there!!..Thanku 4 makin the weather so gr8!!!...Iknow uv got sumfing 2 do wiv it!!!...Ok Im goin!!...Imalways yours tho ok!!..No matter what appens in the future my heart was yours 1st and it will be last!!!..Take care!!..Lov and miss u sexy bum!!..Emily your angel!!!!!! emz (lil sis) x at 18:6:53 Sunday April 21 2002 Hiya tom! How are you?! I hope you are alright i am missing you so much tom and same as liv really i have not been too good. Nothing at home is the same everything i do you is on my mind. I listen to certain songs and they remind me of you so much, i sit in your bedroom when normally its you sitting in there watching your t.v or a dvd. Its really strange not seeing you in there anymore! For a long time tom i am not going to be able to stick it in my head that you are no longer with us anymore because it still does not seem real to me! I miss you so much i just wish u would come home :o(. I am so scared of growing older without you! I miss your company so so much, our lil fights and arguments i miss everything about you i even miss you hoovering your bedroom and slamming my bedroom door things like that will always be in my mind but i just wish you was still here to do all those things. I hate being alone at home without you i know i have mum and dad but i dont have a big bro anymore, but i do in my heart. I just want to see your face again how it used to be, big smile and your silly accents! Anyway i wish for so much but i just wish for you to come home one day and see me. I love you. Love your lil sis xxx Emily(his girl) at 11:24:39 Thursday April 18 2002 Mornin my sexy lil angel its Em ere!!..How r u babe??...Im not 2 bad as u proberly know!!...Im just missin u like crazy!!...Its been just over 6 whole weeks now its sounds like such a long time but it all has just flown by so quick!!...I keep finkin of all the things we could of done in that time 2geva and I get so frustrated and upset that we didnt get 2 do them and we never will!!!...I miss u so so much, and even more everyday!!!..But despite all this Tom I am still try 2 be happy and keep smilin and enjoyin my life as much as I can!!..My reason for doin this Tom is when I am happy and smilin I feel like I am keepin your memory alive in the way u would like it 2 be!!..I know how much you ejoyed life baby,and I know how much u would want me 2 keep enjoyin 4 u!!..I feel like when Im smilin u r smilin 2 and that makes me happy!!..It is hard tho angel,doin it wivout u there by my side 2 laugh or even cry wiv!!!..I love you so so much Tom not only wiv the whole of my heart but wiv all of my soul,so in many ways u r still wiv me in a very big way!!!..Its just I miss seeing your beautiful smile and feelin your lovely kiss!!!..Sumtimes I wish so hard that u could just come back for one night so I could hold u again,just 2 get that feelin of bein wiv someone who I felt so loved by and safe wiv,but I know that would be even harder cause I wouldnt want 2 let u go!!..I never do!!!...I went 2 Fratic at Camden wiv the London crew on Sat night!!..It was good 2 be there wiv everyone u loved so much and when I was there I felt very proud cause I knew I was doin something that u loved doin so much and thats bein out wiv your friends and avin it 2 a few of your fave bangin tunes!!..In there I was fine it was after that sucked!!..Everyone went home with the partner or friend and I had 2 go home alone,which as you know we have never done,we always went home 2geva me and you!!..Back 2 ur Ma n Pas for some Southern Fried chicken and a chill(he he)!!!...But I done it tho Tom partly for me but mainly for u angel face!!..Hope I done you proud!!:o)..Oh yeah and aint that wicked news bout Carl Tom!!!!..I wont go in2 detail incase he dont want no one 2 know,but I know how chuffed and proud u will be of him I know its always been you r dream 2 do it and now he has,wicked ay baby??!!...But Im goin 2 go soon my lover but b4 I go I need 2 ask u a favour,can u please drop in on a couple of our m8s 4 me u know the ones I mean!!..They r starting 2 take it badly and I fink they need u 2 let them know its ok,and that they shouldnt waste there time being sad enjoy it while thet can ay angel!!..Thats what u done!!!...That what makes me so proud of you!!...I love you more that any words can ever say and I always will baby!!..Member I will always be ere 4 u (always your angel)...Miss you and cant wait for the day I get 2 giv u a gr8 big kiss!!...Love you again baby,take care and come and see me soon my dreams will always welcome you!!!...Yours 4eva Emilyxxxxxxxxxxxxx(love u again)xxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxx xxxxxxxxxxxxx Livia at 9:57:20 Thursday April 18 2002 Dear Tom, I've been feeling a bit worse for wear all week as we all went to " Frantic" on Saturday, Emz came too. It was really weird you not being there and I actually got really freaked out at one point coz I thought I saw you standing at the bottom of the stairs. I gasped in shocked after it hit me that it wasn't you. Ron had a chat wiv me to calm me down after, but it was horrible Tom. I was really worried about Emz going coz she was umming and r-ing whether to go in the 1st place. But I'm so glad she did go coz we had such a laughy, but I know she had you on her mind all the time. Wen we all went back to Rons we were getting up to all the usual crazy stuff, but no you. You and Emz always used to really get into it wiv me...it was sooooo funny!! I remember wen we used to do our operatic singing and dancing. I miss you and all that sooo much Tom!! If only we could turn back the time, or if u had left ur house ont he 5th slightly later..who knows. this may never of happened!! I know I shouldn't think like that but thats all I do think about.. I came to see you on Saturday wiv Emz, Ron and Nat..You were covered in yellow flowers..yours and emz colour!! It's so weird that you are gone... that I'm neva gonna see you out clubbing.. having a laugh round Rons, or round ours for dinner!! I really don't understand!!! I wish you was here for Emz, but your not so I'm going to comfort her as much as I can for you!! I love her so much Tom. In a way I think it's fate how we met wen we did and how we've gotten so close b4 you left!! Shes' special Tom, like you!! We've been seeing each other loads latetly and its been wicked!!! She's coming over on Sat for the w/e and then in a couple of weeks I'm going over to hers with Kerst...gonna go and play bingo and that!!! should be a right laugh!! Anyway darlin, I better be off, but I miss you and love you sooooo much sweety!!! You are in my thoughts and heart every day.... Big kiss....Livxxxxxxx lynsey Maciver at 22:20:55 Wednesday April 17 2002 Tommy, how are things going up there? i hope its as nice as everyone says it is - if not; i know you'll make it into a great place. i can't believe it's been six weeks already, i come on line every night and visit you via your website. i haven't left you a message since the day of your funeral cause, well i felt weird as it wasn't my place to do so as i didn't see you for a few years. Everyone has wrote so many wonderful things bout you tommy, there is not much i can say as it has all been said already. but i wanted to let you know conrad e mailed me to let me know about the second club night being held for you, but sadly i can't make it but i will be thinking bout you as always, not a day goes past when i don't.Your sis and ems have made me shed a tear some nights with what they have written as i'm sure you have. we all miss you so much and wish a miracle would come true, like your mum said. but one things for sure you will always remain in my heart and in all those that new you. You were one of a kind Tommy Fox. Stay safe forever and always Lyns xxxxx Lil sis at 21:28:50 Tuesday April 16 2002 hiya tom, well what can i say!? 6 weeks has gone by already and i have thought about you every day, i havent been to visit you for a while and im really sorry :o( i will come and see you soon. Love you always, emily xx Sam Harkness at 19:52:16 Tuesday April 16 2002 Hi Tom. Not a day has gone passed that I haven't thought about you. It's so unbelievable that I am never going to see your beautiful face again. I miss you so much. I want to apoligise for not staying in contact as much as I should of when I moved from Burnside to Colney. I will never forget you, you will always be there in my head, making me laugh!! Love you 4eva. All my love Sam Harkness xxxxxxx Natalie at 13:44:15 Monday April 15 2002 The previous message is from me (thicko) I forgot to put my name in, Love you Thomas from Natski
Anon at 13:42:29 Monday April 15 2002 My darling Tomski, I went to see you on Saturday with Ronnie and Emily and we planted some Sunflower seeds as I know how your favourite colour is yellow, I still cant believe that you are not here anymore, I miss you so much darling there will never be another Tomski. I saw your Mum and Dad on Saturday and they are so Proud of you. I have been looking after Emily for you, feeding her chips at Lunch time, we talk about you all the time and say how you are probably laughing at us slogging our guts out at work.My heart is still broken knowing that I wont see you again for a long time, but Emily, ronnie and Me always talk about you ,so I know that you are always around watching us all. I went to Riot the other sunday with the gang, and ended up back at Ronnies, but it felt funny as I always remember me and you on the floor you tickling my smelly feet, you were the only one that would do it for me, even Ronnie my own Papa refuses now as he says I'm to demanding(he he), oh well I will just have to wait untill we are together again and then you tickle my feet forever. I love you foreve and always Tomski and you are always in my thoughts all the love in the whole world Natskixxxxx
lil sis xx at 22:58:22 Saturday April 13 2002 Hi tom!! Only me again but i havent spoken to you for a while so we can chat now if you like :o). Today i have had a really bad day tom!! I dont see why your gone, all thats spinning round in my mind is why you!? I dont understand. You are on my mind all the time and every single day tom, i just want you to come home, im so lonely now that your gone, yeah i have friends, But i dont have a best friend like you was to me!! You was everything, i miss you so much i know we had our ups and downs but it made us closer as we grew older, we were getting on so great and now your gone!! I have gone back to school its ok but your still always on my mind and i know your always with me but i just wish you was here at home with me!!!! Anyway im starting to cry so i am going to go, see you soon and i love you so so much!! Your lil sis xx
Mum x at 22:45:13 Saturday April 13 2002 Tom you were someone so very special What more is there to say I only wish with all my heart That you were here today I dont believe in miracles But only one would do To see the front door open And see my tom walk through God bless my angel. Love you x
Ronnie at 12:16:55 Saturday April 13 2002 Hi Tommy Boy. Its the Ronsta here geezer. It's Saturday morning. I went out lat night to a Drum 'n' Bass night at The End. MY mate Rob was M'C-ing. You know, th eone I told you about from work who did that CD you listened to. I must admit it wasn't too bad although not really my cup of tea. I only stayed for a couple of hours so it wasn't too bad. I'm going to see Angie, Alf and Em later today and, of course, not forgetting you as well. We're all going to Frantic tonight. It's gonna be really strange my friend not having you there, but I promise we're all gonna be thinking about you big time and doing everything we do just for you. You just don't know, although I'm sure you do really, I think about you every day and believe you me, I will never forget. I just always keep thinking, I wish you could still be here with me so we can continue with all the fun we always used to have. Even though I know it's not possible, it won't ever stop me thinking it. Love you always and forever xxxxx
Emily(girlfriend)xx at 17:56:45 Thursday April 11 2002 Hello baby iss me!!...I miss u man!!!..Thats all I keep finkin!!....When u was alive I used 2 always remember nice funny things bout u and us and it would cheer me up!!..I used 2 get that funny feelin in my tummy member the one I told u bout !!...Well u c Im doin that now memberin stuff and I still get that feelin in my tummy and for a moment its like it was when u was ere!!!..But your not and it bloody sucks big time!!!!!!!...Its Friday again 2moro and normally me and u would be sortin out plans 2 go out 2gether his wkend!!!...But Ive got 2 do tem on my own,but of me dont want do cause its 2 norma but the part of u in me does,no what I mean?!?!!?..Its really strainge l8ly Ive been feelin like this all isnt real like Im in a dream and that if I call your mobile or come 2 your house u r goin 2 be there!!..It really does feel like u r sometimes!!...But u r not ay?!?!....I dreamt bout u again the other nite we kissed again but this time it was lovelier it seemed so real!!!!..I h8ed waken up!!!!...Its so strainge tryin 2 carry on a normal life wivout u Tom its so so hard I h8 it so much!!..Life wivout is rubbish!!..Im only bein honest!!...Im tryin 2 make it as best I can but it will never be the same eva!!!!!...When eva I come on ere I always say Im goin 2 try and av a larf wiv u but the I get so frustrated that its not u!!!!...Im sorry for bein so down angel face!!!....But its ok 4 u up there chilli out properly wiv some 12 10s and a big up reefa avin a whale of a time!!!..U can drop in on me anytime u want but I can never drop in on you ay?!?!?!...Thats not fair man!!!!...Oh ooh head I miss so much its drivin me crazy!!!..Im goin 2 go now baby face lover pants!!!!..Just needed a quick chat!!..Im comin 2 c u Sat so Ill see u then babe!!..Be good and come and see me asap!!...Love u loads and loads times 100000!!!!..YOur angel always Emily xxxxxxxxxxxxx
Lucy at 10:0:48 Wednesday April 10 2002 Hey Tom !! Me again. Just wanted to let you know I still can't believe you are gone. Is so hard ..still. Every day brings a new memory. Yesterday, I picked up a picture of Tobys wedding, you were standing next to me, for some reason I noticed that more than before. Then I remembered talking to you that day, you were looking really great in your suit, and you said you borrowed it from your Grandad !! We all laughed at that coz we couldn't believe it fitted so well. Now I've met your Grandad and all your family that you talked about so much. But met them for the saddest of reasons. I still can't believe it. We are planning my wedding now, that was when I thought all our families would finally get to meet. Seeing our Dads talking at the funeral...you would have SO loved that. It makes me so sad that you aren't going to be there, but everything we do is done with you in mind. Still can't believe your gone Tom! Why you ? Em seems to be doing really well, but its like a light has gone out inside. You was that light. Gotta go Tom, miss you so much xxxxx Love to all xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Anon at 18:12:32 Tuesday April 9 2002 BIG IT UP 2 ALL OF TOMMY'S FAMILY ANGIE, ALF & EMILY E.T.C. AND OF CAUSE HIS GIRL EMZ.XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Em(his girl) at 17:58:31 Tuesday April 9 2002 Hello angel face its me your angel!!....How ya doin up there??...Wicked I bet???...Im doin ok down ere!!!..Its been 5 weeks now!!..Each time it reaches a week I always say 2 myself"Weve neva been apart this long"!!"..I still cant believe uv been taken away from me baby!!!!...I keep wanted 2 fone u n the hope u might answer ur fone!!..I actually believe u r goin 2 sometimes!!!!..Silly I know!!!..Its just horrible not hearin your voice!!!...Im missin u sos o much as u know!!!...I keep memberin the lil silly fings u and me used 2 do 2geva!!....I used 2 love the feel and smell of your skin it was so smooth and perfect and I miss it so much!!..I had a dream last night that u came back and we kissed for ages it was lovely!!!!...I cant wait 4 the day I get 2 kiss u again Tom,cant wait 2 hug u again for ages like I used 2!!!!.....Im goin 2 go now pooh face!!..This was just a quick one 2 say hello!!!.....The kitchens lookin wicked by the way and member when u aid the bath at my flat had sunk well u was right some1s comin 2 fix it on Sat,horah he said horah!!!!!...I love u so much!!..U once said 2 me u dont just love me from the bottom of your heart u love me wiv every small inch!!!...Thats how Im feelinn now!!..Its frustratin not avin anyone 2 share it wiv!!!....Im realy goin now!!...But take care of u and keep r cloud tidy for us!!!!...Miss u and love u!!...See you soon babe!!!!xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Nomsa.K at 21:21:59 Sunday April 7 2002 Wa Gwan Tommy boy!!! You have been keepin da sun shinning dis weekend i tell ya. Stil don't seem real that your gone blood. I think it's gonna take a long time. Me and peeps were bussing some jokes about you up the town friday. We were all in the bell pub, Chattin bout primary and secondary school. I was bussin it so much i started cryin. I bet you were killin it with us when you were watchin down on us. Boy there's so many peeps that are missin ya. Were all gonna meet up one day, all be bunnin together and gettin lean up!!!!!! see ya soon bredrin. Peace!!!!!!!!!!!x x x x x xP.s I met an R'n'B record producer over the weekend, he listened to my voice im keepin my fingers crossed mate!
claire and aunty cheryl at 19:57:20 Sunday April 7 2002 hello tom we are all thinking about you,hope you are ok up there. a day never goes by with out us thinking about you love you lots couisan claire and aunty Cheryl
Your little sis at 23:40:49 Saturday April 6 2002 Hey tom, just wanna say!! I know your shining down on me from heaven and i know how many friends youve lost along the way and i know eventually we will be together one sweet day!!! I love you so much man!!! I miss you so much 2!!! I dont know what else to say. But i love you.
your couisan claire at 20:58:9 Saturday April 6 2002 hello tom I have been staying at nanny and grandads houserthis week and sadly i had to go home but just befor i went i started crying and it was about you it was like somebody had turned the tap on but realy high . I realt like your website loads of people go on it and send you lots of lovley messages i still can not belive your gone nobody else dose aswell your mum and dads kichen is lovley i recon you would have loved helping grandad do the plumbing i will have to go now my mum is calling me to have dinner love lots and lots for ever your little couisan claire
your couisan claire at 20:56:29 Saturday April 6 2002 hello tom I have been staying at nanny and grandads houserthis week and sadly i had to go home but just befor i went i started crying and it was about you it was like somebody had turned the tap on but realy high . I realt like your website loads of people go on it and send you lots of lovley messages i still can not belive your gone nobody else dose aswell your mum and dads kichen is lovley i recon you would have loved helping grandad do the plumbing i will have to go now my mum is calling me to have dinner love lots and lots for ever your little couisan claire
jemma.b at 20:46:7 Friday April 5 2002 hi tommy, me again, just wanted to say still thinkin of you and always will! every day. it still doesnt seem real, dont think it ever will! hope to see you soon, all my love to em and the family. love you lots tom, love jemma xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Em (Little Sister) at 17:50:47 Friday April 5 2002 Hi tom, Just saying hello and i hope you are ok up there. Im finding it really hard today, as you know because i just came to see you and bought some flowers down and i didnt mean to cry im sorry but i was standing there and cant believe your gone tom. I love you. Close your eyes and make a wish, angels will be there to blow you a kiss. They will Guide you and make your dreams come true, Look what they did they gave me a great brother like you xxx. I love you so much tom, please one day just let me know i will be ok and everything will be ok. I want to hold your hand and see your face but its no longer there. I am going to go. Love you forever. Dont leave me xxx
Kerrie at 12:2:51 Friday April 5 2002 Tom its me AGAIN!! im really sorry to keep hassleing you but this week has been hard for me. harder than previous weeks apart from the first or course. i had a really horrible dream about you the other day and its messed me up a bit in my dream you didnt want to talk to me and i woke up crying. I know it was just a dream but it upset me. i still think of you every day and today is exactly a month since you went. Im so sorry that it happened to you and i want you to know i still care so much and want you to come a see me when you can i bet your really busy visiting everyone at the mo but please dont forget me!! Look after your family Tom they need you i know you do anyway. ill let you go now i love you. Kay x x x x
livia at 11:54:18 Friday April 5 2002 Hiya Tom mate, I was just looking at your photo gallery and then that Will Young song came on and I just started crying at work. I don't even know why that song makes me sad, coz I know how you didn't like it ans how you used to take the micky out of me and Emz for liking him. Oh I don't know Tom.. I just can't believe that you have been taken from us and more importantly form your family and gorgeous Emzy!! It's been over 1 month now and it still hasn't become more real. Tonight we're all going to see Sound of music sing along at the theatre and remember you were supposed to come too. It was gonna be You, Em, Me, Joel, Ron, Rich etc, but now no you!!!! We would have had such a laugh, and we still will for you, but it just wont be the same as if you were there! We went clubbing on Sunday to "Riot" and Joel was doing that funny dancing that you used to do and i just had to ask him to stop. I couldn't handle it. In time I will be able to laugh about stufflike that, but at the mo it's just too painful and hard! Sorry for being all morbid and that, but I've just come over feeling like pooh! Well, I know I don't even have to say it coz you can hear everything that I'm thinking, but I miss you Tom, and I love you soooo much darlin. I can't believe that we're never gona have a laugh together again and not being able to all go out clubbing again. I'm gutted Tom!! ...we all are!!! I'll write again soon and next time I promise not to be so sad.. Love you matey and take care of yourself and go and say hi to my gran...She'll put you in line if you're getting up to any mischief up there..good old Italian gran!!! Ok matey, love you always, your friend, Livxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Danni. G at 15:54:27 Thursday April 4 2002 Tom what can i say every time i hear ur name i feel sick i guess thats the best way of describeing it m8, sorry it's taken so long but i just don't know what to say. i cant stop thinking about u and ur family i saw ur mum and sister and i couldn't take it i had to leave, i guess now i'm looking at all the good times we had, walking to and from colney like crazy idiots in the winter just to go and have fun, today i'm having an off day and ur on my mind, ever since u went on ur journey tom my heads been twisted not understanding it all fully. m8 i'm coming down to see u next weekend so i can talk to u then, i want u and ur family to know that i'm thinking of them, All my love D.x
Bryony at 10:59:52 Thursday April 4 2002 Hey Tom, just a little message to let you know I'm thinking of you ! We went raving on sunday but it was really wierd not seeing you in there having it !!!! But I'm sure you were watching us all. Anyway babe, take care. Love B XxXxXx
Simone at 16:42:9 Wednesday April 3 2002 Hello Mate - it's me!? Just a quick note to say hello and to let you know that you're still in my thoughts, it's hard not to think about you babe cos you're just so wicked! It really upsets me reading all these messages, everyone loved you so much mate, I feel for your family and those who were closest to you, it must be so hard for them. You just stay around in their thoughts and keep them happy - ok?? take care babe and sweet dreams x x
Jo at 13:22:56 Wednesday April 3 2002 Hi Ya tom didnt even think this could happen to any of us we miss ya so much!! its silly how we take our mates for granted and then in a blink of an eye their not there any more!believe it is been so hard on me dan and fambo we couldent believe it! but at least your in a better place than what we have to deal with down here.me and dan were remember all the times we played BLOCKY and saying how much we miss it anyway speak yo ya soon love ya and miss ya loads Jo,Dan AND FAMBOXXXXXXXX
Emz (lil sis) at 12:31:25 Tuesday April 2 2002 Hi Tom, How are you up there? I hope you are ok, i really dont know what to say because i still cannot believe that my one and only brother has gone, You are still always in my heart and mind though but its not the same as seeing you come in from work always laughing and having a laugh with me and mum, and missing you in your room making your music on your decks and me having to shout "tommy turn that dowwwwwn" I miss so many things about you but i mainly miss you. Its one month today, and i am supposed to be in school on a revising class but to tell you the truth i couldnt go and sit in a georaphy revision classroom thinking about you all day, because as its 1 month since you have been gone it seems to be getting harder that you are not here anymore its actually really hitting me that i dont have a big bro anymore but i do deep down in my heart. I cannot stop thinking of you, you are on my mind all the time not one day goes by and i dont think of my big bro!! I went to our boat on sunday, and we went out on it and it was great but i was standing on the back and all the big white waves coming from our boat and going so fast, little things got to me like that because i know for a fact you would have loved to of seen that boat that you didnt manage to see, tears were streaming down my face all day that day because i just wish you had got to see it or had one trip with us on it, but maybe you did get to see because i was talking to you and i know you was probably watching us thinking how great it looked. I really want you just to come home and tell me everything is going to be alright, but i know thats never going to happen. Sometimes i look at myself and in some ways we do look a bit alike. When i came to see you in chapel of rest you looked great and so peacefull but i just wanted to get you out of there and hug you and just wanted you to wake up, the man said we really looked alike which i hope i do, because ill do anything to have your good looks although i want my looks to be a girls looks!!! You were so great and still are i just wish you was down here with us at home seeing the new kitchen being done things like that you would have loved. This family of ours here at home just the 3 of us will never ever be the same without you because you are missing and we think of you every day but nothing is ever going to be the same as it was when you was around. I am going to come and see you today i hope so i will chat to you properly then. Have a good day. Love you so so much. Your lil sis Emily XxXxXxX
Emily again!! at 23:20:55 Monday April 1 2002 Sorry Tom I 4got 2 say NIIIIIGGHHT!!!XXXXXXXXXXX
Emily(his girl)xx at 23:20:2 Monday April 1 2002 Hello baby face its me!!..Hows fings on r cloud up there?!?.....I like 2 wait till Im on my own 2 talk 2 u!!...Tom I am missinu so bloody much!!..U r still in evrything I do!!..When I buy a top I still say 2 myself "Ooo Tom would like me in this!!"..I went shoppin on Sat and came close 2 buying u a lil something so many times!!!..Sometimes its easier just 2 imagine that u r there,2 imagine that if I buy u sumfing I will beable 2 giv it 2 u and c that sexy smile I loved so so much!!!..But then reality hits and I realise that I wont be seeing that smile or gettin that soft kiss as a thankyou!!!..Its a month 2moro and as time goes it just seems 2 get harder!!..Everytime I see another coulple kissin or holding hands I find myself staring at them,watchin them love it each other just like we used 2!!..And sometimes I hate them so much!!..I know I shouldnt,and I regret it after but I cant help but envy them!!..I know u r ere wiv me in my heart and soul!!..A big part of u still lives on in me!!..But I miss the actual u so so much!!!...I cant believe my angel got stolen away from me when we were so happy!!..I try 2 still be happy,av a laugh and all that cause I know thats what u like 2 see,but I so wish u was there 2 laugh wiv me!!!..I went up 2 my bros 4 the wk end!!..It was gr8 up there!!..He reminds me so much of u its scary!!..Notlooks but personality!!!..Did u see me on his motor bike!!..130mph we were doin!!..Crazy I know,but u would of luved it!!!...Took Em 2 Thorpe Park 2day aswell,which was cool!!..It was a suprise 4 her!!..We had a gr8 day,but as always there was that emtyness wivout u there!!...I found a letter that u wrote 2 me bout 2 year ago!!..Its so wierd in it u say how much u love me and wnat 2 spentthe rest of ur life wiv me!!..But in it u also say that me and u can getthrough anythjing 2gether we just av 2 be strong and sensible!!!..Its as if u wrote it 2 me 2 weeks ago,sayin what I needed 2 hear!!..Everyone else says it but the one person I need 2 say it isnt ere,so when I found that letter it was amazin!!!...Ive had a few dreamds bout u 2 which is gr8,they av been pretty wierd but I just love seeing u in them no matter what they r about!!!..Thanku 4 comin 2 see me angel face!!!....Theres so mant things flyin through my head right now that I want 2 write 2 u but I know they wont make no sense 2 anyone reading them!!..All my thoughts r so muddled up!!!...I wake up every mornin and look at my fone half expecting and hopin that I will av a text from u sayin "call me when u get 2 work babe??"..But I dont so wach mornin my heart gets broken even more again!!!...Babe u r in everthing I do,I laugh at something,buy something,eat,drink and even fart and it reminds me of u!!..Not the actual fart!!..I dont av 2 explain I know uknow what I mean!!!...I hope Im still makin u laugh honey,I try not 2 be 2 sad cause I know that would make u sad 2 and I never want that!!!..If Im smilin I know u will be smilim wiv me,and I can member that felin of makin u smile again!!...Im goin 2go now babe xause Im startin 2 cry and I know u dont want that!!..I wish u was ere 2 say" Dont cry angel"!!..But I just av 2 imagine it 4 now!!!...As u know I miss u loads and loads!!..But I love u 1000 times more!!!!....Caant wait 2 see u again baby!!..Take care of u until then!!!...Always your angel Emilyxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx (some more kisses 4 the ones we r missin out on!!)..Love u again oh and sweet dreams!!!xxxxx
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